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- Introduction
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This website encapsulates all the thinking and observations I've had during my life. I'm in my 70's and still have some vitality and ambition. The advantage of being over 70 is that if you have been an observant person and have taken time out to contemplate things, you probably have a lot to offer. Many at this age can have some wisdom but the ability to achieve something doesn't come easily. As for myself I would like to accomplish what I feel I was meant to before my life is over.
My dad and I didn't have that many talks except towards his last years, when we talked mostly about the past. However earlier when I was, oh, in my twenties or thirties, I told him I felt scattered, and his answer stayed with me. He said "Well, maybe all these different pursuits will combine at some point and emerge into a unique creation." Hmmmm.
This seems to be the case now. Early in life I saw the world in terms of forces or vectors and shapes rather than words. It depends on your upbringing where this could lead. People who had similar inclinations as I had usually end up building things or in mechanical fields. In New York City, where I grew up, there were limited outlets for this in an apartment upbringing. Art seemed to be an activity I could do in a small space. I also had other activities in a somewhat demanding and confusing environment. School and striving for good grades took a huge chunk of time. Even so my desire to do art was always a factor.
Later, pursuing a narrow career path was too confining for all the many questions I had about life and its meaning. As a person who was close to me in my early adulthood said, I had to find out why I was living. This rings very true. I spent a few decades delving into the ocean of possibilities for this “Why” while maintaining myself in various ways and eventually I arrived at some answers.
This website achieves what my father alluded to years ago. Art and my search for meaning are now combined in one endeavor. It also provides the soil whereby my final focus can grow and be nourished.
Steven Nussdorf